I was born in the Eastern communistic side of Berlin, Germany with my life centred around community and family values. Daily life was simplistic, playing sport, exploring with friends, dressing up and picking flowers.
In 1989 when the wall came down my community, family, friends and the entire country went through a major transformation. Change occurred dramatically for me and for the first time in my life I met the Western world.
Supermarkets and shops of all sorts were stocked full of fascinating choices I had never known, Kinda Surprise and Haribo Strawbs had me in awe, I was twelve years old and I was in heaven.
The teenage anguish I experienced was nothing spectacular other than the loving but troubled relationship I experienced with my father as he degenerated in to alcoholism and self-destruction. My father may he rest in peace taught me to confront my fears and cultivate my wisdom.
By the time I was twenty my heart and mind were elsewhere, I wanted to travel and explore the world. I ventured to Thailand a decision made under pressure. In conservative Berlin at this time, solid employment was socially preferred and my choice to travel questioned this idea and i was young.
I returned from this trip convinced, I had the travel bug and the temples and landscapes of Asia had me captivated, I had to go again and as it turned out this trip was for good. I had left home.
I travelled, explored, partied and loved and then I questioned…Is it possible to experience the type of happiness and awareness I had heard of and read about in books where inner peace and clarity are the norm. I wanted to find out…
My journey there started with meditation at a temple in Chang Mai in northern Thailand. I ventured there with friends on what was to be a three-day introduction course. The three days past and I was fascinated again, eight days past and I was introspective, after twenty days I was gaining insight and after thirty days I knew my life had changed.
My travels and explorations were now focused around deepening the relationship I had begun with myself back in Chang Mai. Exploring philosophy, religion and Reiki all centred a round my meditation practice became my daily routine. It wasn’t long before I experienced my own healing crisis. All my beliefs and ideas about the world shattered before my eyes and I was lost, alone in the world and very frightened. I experienced a “darkness” so profound that it shook me at my core.
I needed guidance, I needed a point of reference, a new way of doing everything and with help from some amazing friends and teachers I discovered the path of service. I began to give and life became simple and uncluttered. I experienced a new freedom and self awareness and my purpose of giving selflessly, intertwined with something else, I began to receive.
I spent time in nature listening and reflecting and building. I was inspired to pursue my new path. Australia called to me and I responded. I left Asia, travelled to Australia and was immediately captivated by her beautiful coastlines, exotic creatures and stunning landscapes and strangely enough I felt home.
I settled in the Blue Mountains and the Vipassana meditation centre was my new home. I assisted with the courses there doing whatever needed to be done and I was happy to be pursuing my purpose.
I spent many hours in both guided and unguided meditation and my heart began to open. I fell in love with another student and we shared and explored our common purpose of philosophising, travelling, working, meditating and giving service at different Vipassana centres along the way.
Like all things this relationship had an end too. I continued with my purpose, solo now and drawing on my inner resources to find my place again in the world. I settled in the Byron Bay Region (Northern NSW), my home to this day.
After some time a new and unexpected adventure came along when I met the man that would become the father of my two beautiful children and again I was in love and open to its exploration.
Becoming a mum challenged me in ways I had never experienced before. The selflessness required to be a parent and love unconditionally became the major motivating factor in my life over the next few years.
Then an unexpected twist occurred, for reasons unimportant to mention here I made the decision to leave the relationship I had formed with my kid’s dad and pursue my life as a single parent. Terrifying to say the least, I set about reordering my life once again, yet to my surprise whilst doing so discovered a fresh and more dynamic sense of self. My dream space flourished and my meditation practice took me places so deep inside yet so accessible that I moved from my outer world full of responsibilities and ongoing challenges to my inner world of intuitive process and liberating insights with ease.
The connection between the inner and the outer realms of my existence had stabilised and following my intuition and trusting this pathway became my daily rule of movement.
I meditated, studied, read, conversed with others, listened and learnt.
I experienced self-love for the first time and with this came grace and clarity as I transitioned and grew in my outer life. My relationships simplified, my parents journeyed to Australia to stay with myself and the kids, often for a month at a time and we all enjoyed their stay.
It’s hard for me to put in to words what I’m about to say but somewhere along the way I accepted myself as being guided by a creative force that required expression. I followed this creative spark and once again gave birth, this time to my first Heaven’s Touch Essence, “The Gateway Keeper” an essence to assist people in opening the gateway from their outer world to their inner world and back again. The Ancestral Lineage Essence was to follow shortly after.
My outer challenges continue and my inner journey is ever present and at the same time I fully accept myself in this role of creating these essences and I hope through your use of them your journey takes you to places of peace and trust and self-love. I would also like to thank-you for listening to my journey thus far and perhaps some day I will be fortunate enough to hear your own.
If you would ever like to discuss your insights and experiences about this product then please feel free to email me and do so. I believe we are all here to share our wisdom as much as our suffering and I wish you grace and strength for the future.